the pain of life

Life is pain, fortunately or perhaps unfortunately, for me the pain is cyclical...replaced with the reality of "normal" banal existence and the knowledge that to fully trust is to invite pain into one's life...still. I am hopeful, pain passes and not every interaction is destined to generate pain. I miss my child. I miss friends. It all comes around and karma seems to reward those that hurt you with hurt in kind. To forgive is divine, to embrace higher ideals than most mere mortals builds for me, and probably for most a sense of well being and enhances the healing of the soul. So...I forgive...as forgiveness is a high ideal, but do not forget, as to forget is naivety and inviting further pain into one's life. A person that I may be close to can cause me horrific pain, and yes, I would forgive that friend, however that relationship would change as it takes a long time if ever to rebuild that lost trust and retire the memories.  OMG I am waxing philosophical. Well I have not posted for a while due to unfortunate circumstances that were out of my control that altered my perception of the world, loyalty and friendship. Perhaps it shows a wee bit.